2009 Year-In-Review & Hopes For 2010

So I should have done this last night but I was lazy and forgot to do it so here. I feel that I should do it now while I have the chance and fill in on these two parts as one big entry here. With that said, on with the show.

So I have to say that 2009 was filled with some good n bad times here for me. It felt though more bad times but somehow through all of that, I have made it to the end and realized that if I can survive that, I know I will stand and accept what 2010 has to offer. In order to talk about 2010, I need to reflect on both the good n bad of 2009.

The first I can say that I was most grateful for was the fact that I finished school here. As you have seen from my blog entries that it has taken me 8 years of going to different schools, failing, a semester break for Disney, and even going part-time for a year and half cost me a lot here but in the end I am grateful to have my degree. I have to say that I shed my tears after seeing that diploma case in my hands and able to say that I did it.

Another good thing about this year that I can say is Bath & Body Works, my current place of employment. They took me in September 2008 after I left KB Toys. They helped me out in giving me hours and giving me a good pay rate. While I left for a month to work at Petco, when I decided to leave there and return back to my store they took me in and welcomed me back into the fold. I even had the chance of this holiday season being a seasonal manager. It was a great time for me and it helped me remember why I enjoy the store and how to be a good team leader that I know I can be here.

While I had a few good times, 2009 gave me many woes and pains. The first of which is Aaron. I won't go into details about that but I know he hurt me twice and while I have come to terms of forgiving him fully for all and even forgiving myself since I may have caused the damage as well. In the end I know that in order for the new year to go right, I need to leave him in 2009 and not look back. Need to move forward on with my life.

The second thing I guess I can say in which 2009 gave me woes was with Petco. Again, I will refrain from many details but I felt like crap when working there. I saw no warmth from the manager. The only people who truly made me feel welcomed were the associates. Beyond that, none of the managers or even the training manager made feel like I was truly part of the store. To Liz, Jessica, n Nicole of Bloomingdale Petco, I have just a few choice words to say: you need to have better interpersonal skills with new people and fuck you bitches since you all had poles shoved up your asses that you need to pull out.

I guess the third and final bad thing about 2009 was the fact that after graduating I was not able to find a job in my field. As much as I tried, I had no luck in getting a job in my field. So I had to stay in retail which is fine but I feel that retail has served its purpose. I need to move from here and go forth into new ventures.

With that last thought on 2009, I need to think of 2010. I have made a few ideas on what I want to do and as such I need to be a firm believer that I can achieve these goals with no problems whatsoever. Firstly, I hope that 2010 will bring me a full-time job somewhere. While, something says Bath & Body Works as a manager is going to happen, I would really like something that I can use my degree. Don't get me wrong, if BBW gives me something I will take it but I would prefer my field.

The second goal for 2010 is that I plan to get some of my bills paid off. I have been in debt for far too long. It is time for me to dig myself out of my hole and get myself back on solid ground. That way I can be somewhat out of there and be able to say that I made a major dent in my $10,000 debt that I have here.

The third thing that I want to do in 2010 is to move out of my house and get a place of my own. I know it sounds bad but I know that in order to truly be myself and have a serious boyfriend, I need to have my own place. I can't keep lying to my family about where I'm going or what I'm doing here. I know that with my own place, I can come out and deal with the fallout that my family will unleash (if any since I don't know how they will react here).

The final thing I can say that I hope for 2010 is that I would like to find someone who I can finally settle down with here. While I do enjoy hooking up when I get the chance, I would rather prefer myself to be with someone for the long-haul here since I do want that companionship and that white-picket fenced house. I could do that on my own but I want a guy for my own who I know I love deeply and know that he will be there for me as how I will be there for him.

Guess I have done enough reflecting and thinking for now on these two entries that have merged into one. Hope that your 2010 is a good one for you all my readers and stay tuned for the next entry in my life story. I am in the process of working on it and hope to have it out soon. Take care all.